Tuesday, May 6, 2008
i smiled at 11:46 AM.
I am currently in school library..
Having massive headache!!!
Slept at 3 am and woke up at 8.30am = 5.5 hrs of sleep.
I usually have 8-10 hours of sleep daily.
Dont really have a choice to sleep in alittle longer as
I have to attend pilates class at 10 am.
Didnt help when i had a cold milk for breakfast too.
My stomach has been churning since then. Awful..
There it goes again..
and I packed in..
1) Chocolate museli bar
2) Apple bar
3) Banana x 2
for lunch in a hurry to get out of the house.
I know i know. Sleep early next time, right?
I am trying.. have been aiming to sleep at 11am but it doesnt seem to be the case
especially when i have so many things to do.
But i did admit i was multi tasking and I would have slept 2 hours earlier.
And i was not sure what i did last night was worthed the effort but somehow.. i felt suxy! What i have done was named under someone's effort. *Smirk* Such a joke! Not that it matters to me but somehow.. HeLLO.. it's just NOT FAIR! Wait a min, does fairness exist in the first place?
Grrr.. God, tell me why? Why is it so? Why does evil always win? Are you trying to train a fighter out of the battle?
I was not relieved at all and in fact i was utterly disappointed.. frustrated.., however.. somehow i had to be as calm as i could with my words. *Take a deep breath* At some point, i felt like smashing my lappie. *SCREAM*
I hate white lies! and why am i still so nice? *beats me* Dont ask me what has happened, I dont wish to recall anything..
The only thing i must always remember is..
"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful." From all these, I realise that i can control my emotion better in front of others but will kinda vent it out when i am alone. So i can throw my tantrum in my room and then walk out with a smile.
I learn to cry inside but still able to tell a joke. Gosh! Alittle psycho imbalance? haha.. i dont know. Abit scary somehow..
I guess all that i need now is someone i could hug and let me cry all my hearts out..
Where are you?!!!
I guess i am just not in the right mood these days.
Likely PMS..oppzz..
I just need more sleep and more rest and i would be fine.
