Friday, April 11, 2008
i smiled at 12:39 AM.
Yesterday is not my day ...
We were told that our footy pay is cut from 20 to 15 bucks per hour and lesser hours. Well, apparently the physio quoted the price wrongly.
*sobsob* There goes my money down the drain.
And my driving practical has to pause for awhile..
Sighz.. think would need to go source out better job like in the woolies?? *pathetic*
Well, really didnt want my parents to worry about my expenses..
Dont know how to tell bro and sis about this bad news that causes me to have increase cortisol level in my body!
*SCREAM* Not my day lo.. Hrmp!
I am thinking if i have lost the ability to express myself..
When i was told about the pay cut.. i said " alright!" What the...
But deep down i was really really pissed and upset..
Could only let it go when i got out of the school.
Gosh! What happened to me.. my expression of emotion seems to be quite latent huh.
It must have been the big blow that i had in January that causes me to be like that.
I have lost the power to reject people too..
Oh mind... Am i too nice or am i just being soft hearted?
No good..
I have lost the power to be a devil.. totally lost it..
I kept telling people, i can be an angel as long as you dont step onto my toes or climb over my head. If not, pardon me for being a devil! hahah.. say only.. how "devilicious" can i get?
I will eventually forgive lo.. or give in.. argh! Such a marshmallow!
Horrible...
Ian was like teasing me..
Hey, it's traumatising enough to think about it.
Didnt know i am so "attractive" .. haha..
Must learn to reject people... must learn to say NO!!!
trying trying.. trying really hard to execute that.
haha. I guess, i am just too soft hearted.. *Smirk*
Give me time.. i will try to master that by end of the year. ahaha..
Hoping that today would be a better day!
*lenia closes eyes and prays*
