Sunday, April 13, 2008
i smiled at 1:08 PM.
Hmm..
Was recapping the conversation with Ian yesterday.
I was sharing how fun it was to be chased after by guys.
And i realised whenever i was attached, i had to make decision between 2 guys.
Interesting, isnt it? haha..
So Ian was saying, if there are 2 guys chasing after you then.. it's a sign that you would be attached soon. haa!
I was telling ian some of my good old days. Like I could still remember a diamond necklace and 11 roses given by one of my friend vs a birthday cake by my ex-bf during my 21st bday.. Even though i was amused by the gifts from my frd but i did love the birthday cake more than anything.. juz that he didnt think so. Haha.. That was really funny. And i realised, it's good to have competitions around. That would make them treasure you more, instead of you being complacent. So ian was saying, "it depends on the stage of your life. You would not want to have competition when you are 50, right?" haha.. It would be so exciting!
Reminiscing the past is always a sweet and funny thing to do. You actually laugh at yourself for being so silly.. but thinking back.. i would never walk the same path twice with my mentally now.
Maybe that is what people referred as getting more matured after being exposed to a bigger horizon? Have you ever heard of this.. the only constant is
CHANGE and everything is variables.. so when you grow.. your mentally will change along the way.. this is a constant. haha.
The path of being rejected could be really painful but there is always a reason why things happen. If losing can make you stronger.. maybe being a loser may not be a bad thing after all. At least at the end of the day, you learn to be a better person, right?
Falling down hurts but when you stand up and move on.. you would tell yourself to be more careful and alert next time, then you would not fear to fall if need to or even, learn to break a fall.
I guess, i am starting to appreciate who i am now. Without the fall, i probably would still be the same old me who was contented with everything and everyone around me. I would not have a chance to outshine my own character and truly be who i am today. Thank godness..
However, if given a choice.. i rather it be
COMPLETELY DELETED away from my memory.. Sometimes, i wish i could wake up one day and suffer amnesia. Would life be better this way? haha.. *Shrug* Am i being mean? I dont know, i just know i have tried my very best to do what i can and i am TOTALLY EXHAUSTED..
我真的累了!Memories could be sweet..could be sour.. could be happy or sad..
I am as if walking in a long tunnel.. I could choose to turn back and look at darkness or should i choose to look forward where i could see a bright light beaming through?
I choose the latter...
